abdomen

I stayed up way to late last night riding my bike halfway across town and then back. Thus I went through today pretty much in a daze. In about 6 and a half hours I will be waking up to embark on my last day at work till I come back to Austin in late August. I'm pretty thrilled. I'm tired of the routine and ready to meet some new people and have a life beyond doing other peoples dirty work. If only for 2 and a half months.

I've been reading The Bell Jar. No I'm not ashamed that I'm reading a book often considered chick lit. The term chick lit is demeaning and I wish history would have treated female authors with the same fairness as males.

Anyways, heres a quote that pretty much sums up how I feel about choosing a career path or not choosing one at all and the constant nagging question of "Where do I go from here?". Maybe thats what keeps life interesting.


"I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet." - The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath